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wildvision) wrote2007-12-26 03:43 am
wildvision) wrote2007-12-26 03:43 am
*Sigh*
Yes, I live. Lack of posts is due to a combination of my boring life, lack of energy to write anything, and the fact that the few post-worthy things that have happened lately are all painful, so those entries are for my eyes only.
...Anyway...
'Tis Christmas. (Yes, technically it's after midnight, but I don't care.) Although, this is one of those years where it doesn't really feel like Christmas. Hell...let me put it this way. We didn't do anything in the way of decorations this year; no lights, no tree, nothing. We always do at least a tree. And here's the kicker...I didn't even notice that we hadn't gotten a tree until like, the 23rd I think. >_> Granted, with what's been going on, I'm not the least bit surprised...it's just that it didn't even occur to me, y'know?
Got to see my family some; more would have been nice, but I'm glad for what I get. Best friend is MIA, as usual. I swear...I try to be rational, but it never ceases to piss me off the way he always ignores me on the holidays. I know some of his friends are coming home from out of state; friends he otherwise never gets to see. So, of course he wants to spend time with them. The rational part of me accepts this as reasonable, but try telling my emotional side that. >_> No, that side just feels neglected and forgotten...especially considering that I don't get to talk to/see him much anymore these days, anyway. It's like I told him a few days ago...if he misses both Christmas and my birthday, then I'm really going to be pissed. Seriously...is it really asking too much for him to call me and talk a while? Or go out, and spend an hour or two with me?
I hate this...stupid holiday mentality, absent friends and recent problems all add up to making me feel crappy. I hate feeling crappy during the holidays. =( And my work schedule's still going to be out of whack until the weekend after New Years. So my internal clock is all off balance, too. Grr.
*Sigh*
Okay...going to try to lighten up, now. ^^;;
On a purely materialistic note, I got some cool stuff for Christmas. A game, some books and anime, giftcards for Barnes and Noble (woo, free books~!), a new DVD-RW (I think Dad said it wrote at 20x...my old one's like, 4x. XD) and a digital camera. It's a Nikon, and it's a pretty frosted red color. Mom says it reminds her of a sports car. =D Once I get the hang of using it, maybe I'll post some pics of my kitties. (Yeah. Kat == cat lady. No surprises here. XD)
The family all liked what I got them, so I was happy about that. Now I'll just have to see about Jason...hopefully he'll like his, too.
And since I already knew what it was, Mom let me have my birthday present early. (My birthday's on Sunday) It's a pretty emerald ring, seen here. I don't usually go for 'real' jewelry, but I like this one...and it'll be a nice keepsake; something that I can wear and think of Mom, y'know?
...Yikes. Looks like the time got away from me, here. I need to get to bed. Oyasumi~
...Anyway...
'Tis Christmas. (Yes, technically it's after midnight, but I don't care.) Although, this is one of those years where it doesn't really feel like Christmas. Hell...let me put it this way. We didn't do anything in the way of decorations this year; no lights, no tree, nothing. We always do at least a tree. And here's the kicker...I didn't even notice that we hadn't gotten a tree until like, the 23rd I think. >_> Granted, with what's been going on, I'm not the least bit surprised...it's just that it didn't even occur to me, y'know?
Got to see my family some; more would have been nice, but I'm glad for what I get. Best friend is MIA, as usual. I swear...I try to be rational, but it never ceases to piss me off the way he always ignores me on the holidays. I know some of his friends are coming home from out of state; friends he otherwise never gets to see. So, of course he wants to spend time with them. The rational part of me accepts this as reasonable, but try telling my emotional side that. >_> No, that side just feels neglected and forgotten...especially considering that I don't get to talk to/see him much anymore these days, anyway. It's like I told him a few days ago...if he misses both Christmas and my birthday, then I'm really going to be pissed. Seriously...is it really asking too much for him to call me and talk a while? Or go out, and spend an hour or two with me?
I hate this...stupid holiday mentality, absent friends and recent problems all add up to making me feel crappy. I hate feeling crappy during the holidays. =( And my work schedule's still going to be out of whack until the weekend after New Years. So my internal clock is all off balance, too. Grr.
*Sigh*
Okay...going to try to lighten up, now. ^^;;
On a purely materialistic note, I got some cool stuff for Christmas. A game, some books and anime, giftcards for Barnes and Noble (woo, free books~!), a new DVD-RW (I think Dad said it wrote at 20x...my old one's like, 4x. XD) and a digital camera. It's a Nikon, and it's a pretty frosted red color. Mom says it reminds her of a sports car. =D Once I get the hang of using it, maybe I'll post some pics of my kitties. (Yeah. Kat == cat lady. No surprises here. XD)
The family all liked what I got them, so I was happy about that. Now I'll just have to see about Jason...hopefully he'll like his, too.
And since I already knew what it was, Mom let me have my birthday present early. (My birthday's on Sunday) It's a pretty emerald ring, seen here. I don't usually go for 'real' jewelry, but I like this one...and it'll be a nice keepsake; something that I can wear and think of Mom, y'know?
...Yikes. Looks like the time got away from me, here. I need to get to bed. Oyasumi~