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Adulting Fail
Sep. 7th, 2017 12:56 amSometimes I like to say that I'm not responsible enough to be in charge of my own bedtime. Meaning, I often fail at getting to bed at a reasonable time, and I end up being tired a lot. I recognize that it's my own fault, though I still like to complain about it.
But lately, I've noticed something that's kind of weird. I'm all too familiar with staying up past my bedtime because I'm working on something. I'll either lose track of time, or I'll see that it's bedtime, and tell myself, "Oh, just a few more minutes..." But lately? I find myself staying up late just to watch some mindless television. It doesn't even have to be anything I'm particularly absorbed in. Just, I'll look at the clock and see that I should go to bed, and I just...really, really don't want to. Like, it doesn't matter what I do, as long as I can have a little bit longer before bed. It's stupid. And annoying, because I find myself staying up late more often.
The only way I can think to explain it is that I'm so busy with schoolwork, that I want to have some free time. It doesn't matter what I do with it...as long as I can be awake, and not doing homework or work at my job, I want it. And that's the frustrating bit...by the end of the night, I never have the energy to be doing anything productive or fun. So, mindless TV is pretty much it. But apparently, my brain says that even that will do. =P
It's like I'm trying to balance my need to have awake-time that isn't spent on work of some type, and my need to actually get a decent night's sleep. And apparently, there aren't enough hours in the day for both. Ugh.
But lately, I've noticed something that's kind of weird. I'm all too familiar with staying up past my bedtime because I'm working on something. I'll either lose track of time, or I'll see that it's bedtime, and tell myself, "Oh, just a few more minutes..." But lately? I find myself staying up late just to watch some mindless television. It doesn't even have to be anything I'm particularly absorbed in. Just, I'll look at the clock and see that I should go to bed, and I just...really, really don't want to. Like, it doesn't matter what I do, as long as I can have a little bit longer before bed. It's stupid. And annoying, because I find myself staying up late more often.
The only way I can think to explain it is that I'm so busy with schoolwork, that I want to have some free time. It doesn't matter what I do with it...as long as I can be awake, and not doing homework or work at my job, I want it. And that's the frustrating bit...by the end of the night, I never have the energy to be doing anything productive or fun. So, mindless TV is pretty much it. But apparently, my brain says that even that will do. =P
It's like I'm trying to balance my need to have awake-time that isn't spent on work of some type, and my need to actually get a decent night's sleep. And apparently, there aren't enough hours in the day for both. Ugh.
