.: This Girl's Daybreak :.

There is no amount of profanity that is sufficient to express how I feel right now.

I just spent the better part of the night writing up the longest of my assignments for this unit in my Communication class. The one that was long and difficult, and I left it for last, because I knew it'd be hard to write. That assignment.

After I finished, I closed Word, and went to copy the files on to my USB drive. First, I delete the school folder that's already on there. Then I copy the one from my C:\ and paste it over. At which point I realize...I had somehow, accidentally, been working on my USB drive, not my C:\. That is to say, the files that I just created, and spent all that time writing in? Were in the folder I just deleted. And, since that folder resided on my USB drive, it didn't go to the Recycle Bin, where I could rescue it. Oh, no. It's just gone.

Which means I have to write this entire thing, all over again. After I just finished it.

*Screams*


EDIT @ 11:51PM - Well, I am shocked. I actually managed to remember the biggest part of what I wrote, and was able to re-write it. I'm sure it's not exactly the same, and parts of it feel a bit shaky, but it's mostly there. I will look over it more thoroughly tomorrow, because I am mentally exhausted now, and in no condition to do any serious editing. ...Seriously. I wrote this assignment twice in the span of one day. Fucking hell.

Okay, so I've had a craving for some fic for a few of my old fandoms lately. Mostly Yoroiden Samurai Troopers. And I've been digging through archives, looking for fic. Including a lot of old, vanished sites, courtesy of the Wayback Machine. And holy cow. Talk about a time warp. Apparently, I am spoiled. These days, much of the fic I read is either on AO3 or FF.net. AO3 is always my first stop.

I mention this, because I'm finding that things were often done differently in these old archives, and it's driving me a little nuts. And it's weird, because I don't remember it being this way, back in the day. I don't know if I hung out on sites that did things differently, or if I was just used to it back then. Probably the latter, but eh.

( Grumble, grumble... )

So, seriously...where's the good YST fic hiding? There must be some, right? Please, fandom?

Remember how I was excited about finding that new Yuugiou movie? Well, they fucked it up.

According to this article, they somehow managed to have the entire first batch of disks be defective. The Japanese language track is there, but the subs are the dialogue for the shitty English dub, rather than an actual translation of the Japanese dialogue. =/

Yeah, seriously. So, of course I pulled out my disk to check, and sure enough. I watched the first couple of minutes and spotted dub names as well as additional lines in the subs. My Japanese was never near fluent, and I'm super rusty now, but I can understand some really basic lines. So I can see a couple of places where the subs are adding stuff that the character didn't actually say.

Fucking hell. Can't this idiotic company do anything right?

So now, I have to write to the people who produced the disks and see if they'll exchange my defective one for one that's right. That article I mentioned gives contact info, so I'll try to do that soon. No idea if they'll actually do an exchange, and if so, how long or difficult the process will be. Ugh.


EDIT:

Oh, you have got to be kidding me. Okay, so I was annoyed that I couldn't watch the disk I bought. So, I went looking for a fansub to tide me over. (Because I'm betting that, even if I can get my disk exchanged, it'll probably take a while.) I found one, spent a while downloading it, then fired it up, and...the subs were in fucking Greek. Or I assume it's Greek, based on how the lettering looks. No mention on the torrent site, nothing in the filename, absolutely nothing to indicate that this wasn't in English. Bloody hell...that was a complete waste of my time and bandwidth. And now, I have to go see if I can find any other copies. And hope that those are actually in English. =/ Kat is not amused, seriously.

Alright, I've had just about enough of this crap.

( This got a little long... )

Why do newer OSs have to break old software? It's not fair. And, with that being the case, why the fuck do all the good programs get abandoned or discontinued, so there are no newer version to upgrade to? Argh!

I swear, lack of reading comprehension is such a huge pet peeve of mine.

You email someone and ask a question (or two), and they respond...and don't even address what you asked. I fucking hate people who do this. Like my bonehead Operations Management prof. This isn't the first time, either. (Or hell, there was the time when I emailed him twice about an assignment, and he just never fucking answered at all!)

I emailed him on Friday asking about our homework. Simple question: how do we find the number of workers we have, so I can do these calculations? I asked him to clarify something else, too. Maybe that was my mistake. Can't bother to actually pay attention to more than one thing, obviously. So he answers me today...completely ignoring my initial question. Just says that to figure production, you need to do x, y, and z...but to do x, you need the number of workers. Which he doesn't tell me how to find. Which was the primary question I asked, in the first place.

*Screams*

So, I emailed him and asked him the same fucking question AGAIN. Now, we'll see if he actually answers me before the assignment is due on Tuesday. >_>

Ugh, I swear, I have just about had it right now. I'm such an idiot!

So, as I mentioned in my last post, I'm sick. Yes, still. I went to the doctor yesterday and got some meds, but they'll take some time to start working. So, I'm sitting here, feeling crappy, trying to do homework. I was going to try to get started on the big paper for my Econ class. See, I'd done some research a little while ago. Went around and saved a bunch of sources, skimmed through them. So, I should be good to go for starting to write. If I don't have all the sources I need, I should have at least enough to start with.

But no. See, I'm an idiot. Somehow, I managed to delete all the research I'd saved. Yeah. I could have sworn I'd copied it over, but evidently not. And now it's gone. So I have to start all over. And that means I can't start writing until even later. Fuck college, seriously. I'm too sick and tired to feel up to dealing with this shit right now.

I'm a strange mix of pissed off and whiny/clingy right now. =/ On the one hand, I'm really mad that I have to do this work twice. But, it's like...I don't have the energy to actually be mad. I just want to be cuddled and taken care of. Stupid infection.

...For classes to be starting up. =P

Both my KCTCS classes have been opened, and material posted. I'm not sure if classes have 'officially' started yet, but I can start poking around. Neither of my MSU classes are up yet, though. Not sure if MSU starts later, or if my professors are just slower than the folks at KCTCS. Either way, I'll keep checking.

And I've already hit a snag. Or, a potential one. My database design class says we need 2013 or newer Access and Visio. Access I expected, and I have access (ha!) to it. KCTCS gives their students free use of Office 365, so I can use that. According to Google, Visio is also part of the MS Office suite, but the KCTCS freebie doesn't include it. And I asked Dad about his copy of Office, but apparently it's from 2007. I thought he had 2013, so I was hoping maybe his copy would have Visio. But if it's that old, it doesn't matter if it does or not.

So, I'm not sure what to do. I don't have several hundred dollars to drop on a piece of software that I will never use again after this class is over. So, I really need a free (or very cheap) copy. The course syllabus says that CIT majors might can get it free from somewhere, but I'm not a CIT major. (Sadly.) So, I don't know. I guess I'll email my professor in a little bit, and see what they say. According to the course outline, we won't be needing Visio until March, so I've got some time.

Still, this bugs me. It's one thing to require basic Office programs, which most people either have or have access to. But I'd bet that most people who own Office don't have Visio installed. So I really, really hope they have some way for us to get it cheaply, or free. College is expensive enough without making us spend large sums on software that we'll never use again. >_>

Oh! And I almost forgot. I am already unkindly disposed toward my database design prof. The syllabus says that not only are exams timed (which is normal), but they will have a short time limit. "To be sure you prepared". Screw you, prof. Seriously. Lots of people have test anxiety, which can make it take longer to finish a test. Even if I study my eyes out, and know the material, I get nervous, and I try to go over everything carefully. Now, not only will I be worried about the test, I'll be worried about if I'll have enough time to finish it! Freaking jackass. Why would you intentionally make things harder, when there's no reason to? Jerk.

Dude, if life could stop kicking me in the ass, that'd be awesome. >_>

Okay, so yesterday pretty much sucked. First off, it's a long work week due to Thanksgiving being next week. I have to work through Saturday, which is always a bit of a drag. This is made worse by the fact that I've been half sick all week. Not properly sick or anything...just that weird, nebulous kind of sick where you feel like crap, but you can't quite put your finger on why. Less specific symptoms, more general crappy feelings. Bleh. So, that sucks. I felt worse yesterday than I had all week, so I just kind of huddled in my chair at work and waited for my shift to end. Got through my paperwork and such, but it was hard.

( Yeah, it gets worse )

...So, yeah. Yesterday was not fun. =P

So, apparently, my pharmacy and/or my doctors office really suck.

A couple of weeks ago, I ran out of my medicine. I used my app to schedule a refill at my pharmacy. This was on a Thursday. The app says I can't pick them up any earlier than Tuesday. That's overly long, but okay. So I wait. Then, on Monday, I get voicemails from both the pharmacy and the doctor's office, saying I can't get refills until I go in for an office visit. Cue grumbling. This is annoying; an office visit that consists of nothing more than my walking in and saying 'Hey, I need a refill' and the doctor saying, "Okay, here you go' is a waste of time and money. But, whatever.

So, I schedule an appointment, but I can't get in until nearly two weeks later. While on the phone with my doctor's office, I ask if they can give me enough of my pills to last me until this appointment. Otherwise, I'm just going to have to do without for all that time. Lady half-heartedly says she'll leave a note for the doctor. Will you call me and let me know, I ask. No solid answer. And I never did get a call.

Today was the day of my appointment, so I get up a bit early and go in. Nurse checks my blood pressure, and unsurprisingly, it's high. I tell her I've been without my meds, and she starts fussing at me, saying why didn't I get a refill, etc. So I fuss back, that I did ask. I did everything I could do; it's not my fault I couldn't get in any earlier, and it's not my fault the lady on the phone was a complete flake. Grr.

Then! She's tinkering around with their computer system, and she tells me two things that made me very annoyed. First, apparently there was NO requirement for me to have an office visit before they'd refill my meds. They wanted me to come in before my next round of refills, but that's it. But that is NOT what I heard from both my pharmacy AND this doctor's office. Fucking hell. And! If that wasn't bad enough, she says that someone DID call in a short refill for me. But no one bothered to fucking tell me! Argh! So, basically, I've been off my meds for two weeks or more for no reason, other than someone else's blatant stupidity.

I'm changing my pharmacy after this, that's for damn sure. I don't know how much of it was their fault, and how much was the doctor's office's fault, but at this point I don't care. I've been annoyed at my pharmacy for a while now; they robocall incessantly when you've got refills coming up, and each time the damn robot calls, it leaves a message. I swear, I cleaned out my voicemail box a little while ago, and I had nearly twenty messages that were just the stupid robocalls. That's been annoying for a long time, but it wasn't enough to make it worth the trouble of transferring everything. Well, now it is. With this bullshit happening, plus that, I've had it. I'm switching to the pharmacy Mom uses; they're not in town, but she likes them.

Ugh. This day is not off to a good start...

I swear, this whole fuzzy-headed, can't-concentrate thing that I get at the beginning of a semester really sucks.

It's understandable, and expected, even. But still. I really, really hate it. It's so hard to get going; like a car that doesn't want to start in cold weather. You know that if you push it enough, you'll get going eventually....emphasis on 'eventually'. =P And that's what I'm doing now. Most of my classes are open, so I've started doing the reading for the class with homework due the earliest. And I just. Cannot. Focus. Seriously. I'll read a page or two, then I'll go play on my phone. After a little while, I'll go back and read another page or two. Lather, rinse, repeat.

Honestly...as much as I like having time off with the breaks between semesters...I almost wish there was a way to just have classes that would run straight through. Maybe a week off, that's it. But seriously...I think it would be easier to concentrate if I didn't get nearly a month of time to let my brain atrophy. (And summer break's going to be even worse. Ugh.)

Also? The class I'm starting with is Economics. And there's math in it. Like, graphing, finding slopes of lines and curves...shit that I haven't done since junior high, probably. This is seriously not cool, people. Because, despite what math teachers love to say, you do not use that shit in real life, unless you work in a math-oriented profession. (And I do not.) So, I'm worrying about how hard I'll find the homework. I can safely say I've completely forgotten this crap, and I don't know how easily I'll relearn it.

Oh, and one more thing. I noticed this in a class or two last semester, and I'm seeing it again here. The textbooks will give a term, and then tell you that it doesn't mean what that word normally means. In this context, it means 'some other word'. But they won't use that word, no, they're going to use the first one, which means something different. And it's driving me a little batty. Words have meanings. Use the word that means what you're talking about! Like, in the beginning of my Econ book, they're talking about how resources are 'scarce'. But it doesn't mean 'scarce', as in 'rare, or hard to find'. No, it means 'finite'. But we can't just say 'finite', because that would be too reasonable. =P Or, I remember my Management book from last semester, instead of saying 'department', they'd call it a 'function' or some such bull. Seriously. No, we can't say 'department level such-and-such', no, it's 'function level', which frequently made no bloody sense in the sentence. Or the 'research and development function'. Seriously. It's the fucking R&D department! It just makes things harder than they need to be, because you're reading and you know the actual definition of the word, but you keep having to stop and correct yourself as you read, so you can try to understand what's being said. Fucking stupid is what it is.

...Geez, this post started as whiny and ended up pissy. Oh, and I'm procrastinating, too! Still in the middle of reading my Econ book, and I stop to write this. I really need to quit doing this...